Surrender yourself to Me

Reflections

2012-01-24T13:27:00.000-08:00

Latex Goddess

2011-07-14T05:20:00.000-07:00

Do you like it bitches? Drool and wait for me, I'm worth it! Off on vacation now, Tuscany is my destination. I want you all lined up and waiting for me like good sluts when I come back. It's useless to look elsewhere, you nasty cheating whores. I'm unique, and no matter how many wannabe Mistresses you'd try, you'll all eventually come back to the one and only Goddess Manuela.

D/s party in London

2011-06-30T12:09:00.000-07:00

I'm sure that you've all noticed my absence in the past couple of weeks and have been wondering what your Mistress is up to! Well, I've been on vacation, visiting and partying in London. I spent some amazing 7 hours in the paradise of BDSM, probably the best Dungeon for hire in London and Europe! I'll come back later with stories from the party, here are some pics until then though.

I'm back

2011-01-25T15:19:00.000-08:00

Valentine's Day best card

2010-02-14T18:55:00.000-08:00

My slave boy just gave me the most original v day card ever , his balls pierced on a heart :) This is just awesome , I loved it my boy ! I am proud of you.

About blackmail

2009-11-02T14:51:00.000-08:00

I really don't like repeating myself , but some morons think they're above others and my rules do not apply to them. It is written in my rules that "I'M NOT ROLEPLAYING YOUR KINKS". What part of that can't you understand Jean? What the fuck makes you think those rules do not apply to you?? Think again and read again the rules Jean , I will not forget what I know and I just might act on it if you don't change your attitude and apologise for being such a dick in my room. Nobody can top ME from the bottom moron ! you will apologise on your knees for being a moron and not respecting my rules , then you can go to hell from my part , I don't give a shit about your money , position or status. Oh , you'd better do this quick , before I change my mind and really destroy you loser.

My rules

2009-10-21T18:17:00.000-07:00

The perfect , true submissive doesn't need any rules. He knows by instinct what's expected from him : to put his Mistress needs and wishes first. That's how you please anyone , not just a Domme. However , for the newbies or those who are not sure yet what submission trully means , here are some guide lines
I'm not roleplaying your kinks. This is topping from the bottom. I do what I want , when I want and however I see fit. Roleplaying on demand is not Domination .
If you have a foot fetish and want to worship my feet/legs , there's only one way to do it. Buy Me shoes and hossiery from My wishlist. This is how you are an online foot slave. Do not come in and expect Me to show you My perfect legs/feet so you can simply jerk off. This would be only pleasing for you , and it's topping from the bottom again. Be a good slave and worship My beauty by contributing to My well being.

I've said it before and I'm saying it again. I'm not here to perform for you. I'm not providing a service. I'm here for My personal amusement , just being Myself. Don't even think that if you're spending money on Me you're buying something , anything. I'm not for sale. You're paying by the minute for My attention , no strings attached.
Do not expect Me to read your mind and guess why you're visiting Me. I assume that since you joined Me in My room, you are there to serve and please Me. Always be honest and open with Me. Be creative , use your brain and communicate . A successful D/s relationship is based on trust and respect , from both sides. That involves alot of getting to know each other conversations. D/s is a state of mind , it's 90% brain act and 10% action only.Open up and talk to Me about what's going on in your mind , your most hidden thoughts and fantasies , your limits. Let Me inside and I will know what buttons to push . Remember , D/s is consensual and it takes two to tango.
To the non-submissive men who keep trying to convince Me otherwise : you are wasting your time. And Mine . I'm not looking to sell submission on you , I'm not even trying to convince you that My way is the right one. I am what I am and I'm happy like that. I don't care about your judgemental preconceptions. My principles and lifestyle are not negotiable. I'm not looking for a bf , a husband , a sugar daddy or even a sex toy. Period.

Finally , Domination is not about kinky sex.Domination is about power exchange. If you're capable to understand this , then you probably have a good potential as a sub. If you're just looking for kinky sex , I'm sure there are many women out there who will give you what you want. I'm not one of them.

About submission

2009-10-21T18:07:00.000-07:00

"True strength lies in submission which permits one to dedicate his life through devotion to something beyond himself" - Henry Miller

The quote above summarises the essence of submission in My opinion. A sub's first question when approaching a Domme should always be " How could I please You Mistress? " , and not things like "will you punish me?" ," let me worship your pussy" , " spank me , fuck me , etc". Don't come to Me with the "do me" attitude , cause I'll show you the exit door. This is not about you , pathetic prick , serving means being interested about My needs and desires and doing your best to please Me.

Don't abuse My generosity and take up My time in free text chat. Show some respect and pay for the priviledge of having My attention. Always address Me in a polite manner and ask permission before entering or leaving My videochat room.

Submission is a state of mind first of all. You get born with it , you feel it inside from very young ages. A person can be trained into submission and taught about being a better sub , but no one can be forced into submission if his mind is not set to work that way. All D/s relationships are consensual in the end.

It is a common misunderstanding , that only weak people are submissive. That is totally wrong ! There are many powerful , influent , intelligent men and women that are submissive deep inside. The modern society expects men to not express uncertainty or weakness , so they keep it inside . Submission allows a man to express all sides of his personality in a safe way. The so called "forced submission" is about those who know deep inside that they're submissive , but they're not ready to admit it to themselves. Through "forced submission" (which is only a consensual roleplay ) , they are experiencing their submissive side without being held responsible for their actions.Of course , it's only a consensual roleplay . I'm not particulary interested in any kind of D/s roleplaying. This is My lifestyle and it's very real for Me. If you need to be forced into submission , therefore forced into pleasing Me , you're in the wrong place.

" If I accept you as you are , I will make you worse. However , if I treat you as you are what you're capable of becoming , I help you become that" - Goethe

About me

2009-10-21T17:53:00.000-07:00

I've always been an independent person , a brat as a young woman and later becoming fully aware of My power and ability to make others surrender to My wishes.Obviously , a stubborn , independent woman like Me can only be a Domme , when talking about My sexual attitude.

Some of the things I'm interested in : humiliation , CBT , sissification , worshipping , tease and denial , orgasm control , chastity , objectification , puppy training , financial domination and financial blackmail.

I will make it clear for you from the start :I am not providing a service , I'm just being Myself and I make you a favor if I allow you to serve Me and worship Me. I don't judge anyone's principles and life views , so I expect you to do the same. If you don't feel the same way, you are free to go right now . I'm not forcing anyone to share My beliefs , so don't try to sell Me your ideas on D/s. This is who I am , My personal beliefs are not negotiable.

A Day of Reckoning

2009-05-12T15:14:00.000-07:00

My boy wrote the following story. It's a mixture between reality and fiction and a really good way to keep track of things and the way he's evolving as a slave.

"Things had been relatively quiet for some time. Mistress and I were going about our normal activities and relaxing for the most part, otherwise. It was early spring and the air still had a chill. The days were getting longer, though, and it was clear that it was time to spend more time outdoors. It was a late Saturday afternoon when Mistress told me we were going to take a trip to the ‘cabin’. I had never heard her speak of the cabin before so I really didn’t know what she meant or where it was. As instructed I put on pantyhose under my pants and placed the collar around my neck. Mistress had a large black bag that she wanted me to bring to the car. We got into the car and began to drive.

“You know boy, that you have been testing me lately with your sarcasm and arrogance. And I have not reacted, other than to take note of your behavior. Well, I’ve decided that tonight will be your day of reckoning for your impudence. So whatever you imagine is coming, it will be worse!” I tried to say something in response, but Mistress told me to be quiet and keep driving. After about 45 minutes we entered into a park area where campers would come in the summer months. It was an area with campgrounds and log cabins for rental. Mistress had me stop the car at the first cabin, where there was a light in the window. She went inside and returned back to the car quickly. We headed up the dirt road past a number of campsites and cabins. Slowly the road became more and more narrow until we arrived at a dead end with a log cabin directly in front of us.

“Well boy, we are over 2 Km from the nearest humans up here so there will be nobody but me to appreciate your screaming tonight!” As I unloaded the black bag from the car, I could see that there was a bright full moon in the sky, lighting up the whole area like a floodlight.

Mistress removed 4 metal stakes from the bag and a wooden mallet. “Go over to that clearing and hammer these stakes into the ground making a rectangle 2 meters by 2 meters. I took the stakes and drove them into the thawing ground. The illumination of light from the moon made any lantern or flashlight unnecessary. While I was placing the stakes, Mistress had walked over to the cabin and unlocked the door with the key that she got at the first cabin. I could see a light go on inside the cabin and after a few minutes Mistress came back outside. “It will take a some time for the kerosene stove to warm up that damp cabin so we will begin your discipline outside. Remove your jacket and shirt and lay down on the ground with your face down.” I answered, “Yes, Mistress,” hoping that by showing my respect maybe my punishment wouldn’t be as severe. I removed my garments and knelt down on my knees as I lowered my body down flush to the ground. My chest hit the dirt which felt like an icicle. I could feel the cold penetrate my body. Mistress removed wrist and ankle cuffs from the bag and shackled me down spread eagle to the stakes. “I hope you put these stakes in deeply, for your sake, sclavul. If they come out you will have hell to pay for it!”. I turned my head to the side and rested my cheek on the ground so that I could breathe. Mistress disappeared behind me but I could tell she was standing between my spread open legs. “I’m going to turn that flesh red, boy, until you think you can’t take anymore and then I will really bear down!” With that I felt the leather of the whip on my bare back. There were no gentle lashes. Each one had the force of her body behind it. Every swing felt like a knife cutting into my flesh. At first I tried not to scream, wanting to show how tough I was, but after a few minutes I could no longer refrain and I started to yell with each stroke. “Ah, boy, so you finally are letting me know that you feel this beating!” Good….let’s see how loudly you can scream!” And with that the lashes got even harder and faster. I was screaming at the top of my lungs now and I was swiveling my head from side to side with each new lash. “That skin is really glowing in the moonlight now, sclavul! And your screams are making me hot. And since I like getting hot I’m going to keep lashing you even more!” I could not believe the pain I was feeling. Mistress had never beaten me like this before. Each side of my back was on fire and felt like raw meat. Every time I thought Mistress was done, she would hit me again. “Tonight there are no limits, boy. Tonight I will punish you purely for my own entertainment!” Finally, Mistress stopped and unhooked my wrist and ankle cuffs from the stakes. “Let’s go boy, into the cabin now and get moving!” As I rose to walk toward the cabin, Mistress continued to whip my back with the leather strap. I wanted to run to get away but I knew I had no place to hide.

I opened the door to the cabin and went inside. The cabin only had two rooms. The front room functioned as the living room and kitchen area. It was very rustic with furniture made from tree limbs and branches. In the corner the kerosene stove threw heat and provided a cooking surface. The back room was the bedroom. It had one large four poster bed and a dresser with a set of drawers and a table and chair. The room had begun to warm up from the heat of the stove but there was still a bit of chill to the air. Mistress told me to remove my pants and lay down on the bed. As with the furniture in the front room, the bedroom furniture was made from cut wood and the four poster bed was extremely solid and sturdy. Mistress used the wrist and ankle cuffs to tie me spread eagle again to the four posts. “Did you think you were done, boy? I have so much more in store for you!” She removed a large wooden paddle from the bag. She stood on the right side of the bed and began to spank Her ass with the paddle. It stung especially hard through the pantyhose. I could see Mistress leaning back and raising the paddle over her head as she brought it down over and over. My screaming began almost immediately. I always hated the wood paddle since it had no flexibility and transferred all its energy into my skin. “I love the sound of your pain, sclavul. You know that you have earned this and I think sometimes even wanted me to punish you!” She continued to pound away as my screams were making my throat hurt. Just when I thought I couldn’t take another hit, she stopped. The pause was temporary though, as Mistress now went around to my left side and began to spank me again. “I’m not stopping until your ass is as red as your back, boy! And we have a long way to go yet!” I could not believe how painful it was. My mind had passed feeling it and now I really was losing awareness of what was happening. Eventually, the paddling stopped but I almost didn’t even realize it. Mistress came around to the front of the bed and picked up my head to look at her. She had removed her coat and was now only wearing thigh high stockings and boots. Her breasts were glowing in the light and her shaved pussy was right in front of my face.

“Your screams were a delight to me, boy, and made me really hot and wet.” She reached down and began to stroke her pussy with one hand and with the other hand held my face up to watch. Before long, her fingers were inside fucking her pussy and I could see the juice on her hand and smell her scent. I secretly hoped it would take a long time for her to cum so that I could have a longer respite from my beating. With a mighty shout I knew she had cum. I could see her legs tremble and she squeezed her thighs together holding her fingers tightly inside her pussy. After a few seconds she began to loosen her grip on her fingers and she pulled them out, covered in her juice. She held her hand in front of my mouth, tempting me to try to lick her fingers. As I pushed my tongue out and strained to reach her wet hand, she said, “Not tonight, sclavul. Tonight is all about your punishment and only your punishment. So prepare yourself, because we are not done yet.”

Mistress went back to the bag and brought out a new implement, an acrylic cane. “Let’s see how long it takes to bring up some nice welts on those legs” and I felt the sting of the cane across the back of my thighs. The cane always felt like a hot metal iron but this was my first experience with the acrylic cane. It hurt much more than the bamboo cane, which I suspected was because it was less flexible. I was screaming uncontrollably now. “Now that is the kind of screaming I have been imagining, boy! Yes, let it go. Show your Mistress how much you enjoy the pain of your punishment!” I could fell the welts rising on the back of my legs as they pushed up against the pantyhose. Again, the pain reached a threshold that allowed my mind to cross over to a new place. Even though my voice was screaming my thoughts had gone beyond feeling pain. Mistress could sense that I had entered sub-space again and the caning got harder. Finally, I realized that Mistress had stopped, though I was unaware how long ago it had happened. My mind returned to the cabin and the pain in my body was excruciating.

“Oh, but we are not quite done yet, boy. I want this lesson to remain with you a long time!” Mistress then unhooked my wrist and ankle cuffs and told me to roll over on the bed. The shear movement as I shifted my body weight brought pain to all parts of my back and legs. As I rolled over I felt like I was laying on a bed of nails. I tried to arch my back to relieve the pain but it just put more pressure on my shoulders and made them hurt more. I could see Mistress reach into the bag and pull out a leather paddle and a roll of duct tape. She used the tape to attach the paddle to the end of the cane. When it was sufficiently taped together, it made the cane into an extension arm for the paddle. Standing at the end of the bed, Mistress then lifted up the paddle and slapped in down onto Her cock. “I’m going to beat My cock for awhile, boy, in case you had any naughty thoughts while I as cumming before!” With each slap, the sting on my cock made me squirm, which only made my back and legs hurt more. I could see the paddle being raised up over her head as she smashed it down on Her cock. Again, I was screaming in agony. “That is the sound I want you to remember, sclavul! The sound of your punishment for thinking you could get away with something!” It was almost as if Mistress was feeding on the screaming. She seemed delighted in every shout. It drove her to punish Her cock even more. Finally she stopped and announced that Her cock was now the proper shade of red to match the welts on my back and legs.

I had endured more than I had ever imagined. And I learned that there was a sadistic streak in Mistress that I had never seen before. She unhooked the wrist and ankle cuffs and I sat up on the bed. She brought me a glass of water, which was the first drink I had been permitted since we started. I had lost complete track of time but I knew it was late. Mistress had gone into the kitchen and returned with a cup of hot tea. She sat in the chair and sipped on her tea as I sat on the edge of the bed. I could see a smile on Mistress’s face as she asked me what I had learned tonight. I told her that I had realized that it was dangerous to play ‘games’ with her and that she was always the better game player and had better not ever think I had won or gotten away with anything. “Ah, that was the obvious lesson, boy! What else did you learn?” I thought for a bit and then I told her, ‘Mistress, I have learned how to suffer, because I am doing it for someone I love and care for.” Mistress smiled with pleasure at my comment. “Now that is a real lesson, boy. Knowing you can endure anything for your Mistress.” She finished her tea and told me to gather up all the toys and get dressed. Even though it was late, we got back in the car and headed back home."

Here are some pictures of the boy going through hell for Me:

Penis plug

2009-05-06T15:31:00.000-07:00

That's how a slut likes it , in every hole. Wait till you see whta he loves taking up his ass ! :)

Needles , lots of them !

2009-04-15T17:10:00.000-07:00

This was one HOT cbt session . Things are getting better by day , aren't they G. ?Well done my boy !

Motivational posters

2009-04-03T16:00:00.001-07:00

Look what I've got from one of my boys today. Isn't he such a sweetie for tempting me like this ? Don't worry hun , I'm gonna take care of your genitals , for hours on and on :)

2009-02-11T20:02:00.001-08:00

My boy :D

New hot CBT

2008-10-29T17:40:00.000-07:00

Well , P. remains one of the bravest kinky studs when it comes to CBT. He keeps impressing me everytime with his toys and eagerness to push his limits. He gave me quite a few amazing shows that left me drooling and wanting to be there. The electro-stimulation session was the hottest thing ever and my hand was aching to twist those buttons UP. I managed somehow to lose the pictures I've taken during the eletro-play , so he'll have to indulge me again sometime :P

However , I have a couple of more cock ring pics , I just love seeing his cock getting purple-blue as I tease him ( my fantasies are just getting wilder and kinkier P. , watch out :) .

Hot CBT stuff

2008-05-23T21:34:00.000-07:00

He's P. , a kinky cbt lover with an impressive collection of toys and props. I love watching him trying them all out and slowly pushing his limits. HOT stuff !

Air force slut pictures

2008-05-23T21:17:00.000-07:00

2008-04-11T13:29:00.000-07:00

This is a short update , related to my sissy slut from the Air Force. This nasty bitch is actually craving to be used and abused and dreams about having me pimp him around and let him get fucked by whoever wants to.

You can contact him on msn messenger , his id is sissyboy4u@live.com .His ass is hungry for cock , who wants to fuck a nasty sissy?

Air Force slut

2008-04-05T19:30:00.000-07:00

Yes , you got that right. Sluts are everywhere these days , even in the war zones , serving their country one way or another. I've met this nasty sissy slut who loves doing everything I say, but most of all , I know he'd love being discovered and gang-banged by the whole unit.

We even play naughty games , where he would unlock his door and get all slutty and dirty for me , hoping someone would barge in and fuck him until he'd pass out.I'm not a selfish Mistress , I like to share , so I will share with you all a few images of my sissy slut getting naughty for me. He's willing to do just about anything to please me and I have special plans for my slut , when he'll finish his mission there. Wanna know what's going to happen to my lil slut? Keep an eye on my blog. I will fulfill this slut's fantasies and more than that. He's mine to use and abuse as I please , forever.

My rules

2007-12-04T13:00:00.000-08:00

The perfect , true submissive doesn't need any rules. He knows by instinct what's expected from him : to put his Mistress needs and wishes first. That's how you please anyone , not just a Domme. However , for the newbies or those who are not sure yet what submission truly means , here are some guide lines.

I'm not role-playing your kinks. This is topping from the bottom. I do what I want , when I want and however I see fit. Role-playing on demand is not Domination .
If you have a foot fetish and want to worship my feet/legs , there's only one way to do it. Buy Me shoes and hosiery from My wish-list. This is how you are an online foot slave. Do not come in and expect Me to show you My perfect legs/feet so you can simply jerk off. This would be only pleasing for you , and it's topping from the bottom again. Be a good slave and worship My beauty by contributing to My well being.
I've said it before and I'm saying it again. I'm not here to perform for you. I'm not providing a service. I'm here for My personal amusement , just being Myself. Don't even think that if you're spending money on Me you're buying something , anything. I'm not for sale. You're paying by the minute for My attention , no strings attached.

Do not expect Me to read your mind and guess why you're visiting Me. I assume that since you joined Me in My room, you are there to serve and please Me. Always be honest and open with Me. Be creative , use your brain and communicate . A successful D/s relationship is based on trust and respect , from both sides. That involves a lot of getting to know each other conversations. D/s is a state of mind , it's 90% brain act and 10% action only.Open up and talk to Me about what's going on in your mind , your most hidden thoughts and fantasies , your limits. Let Me inside and I will know what buttons to push . Remember , D/s is consensual and it takes two to tango.

To the non-submissive men who keep trying to convince Me otherwise : you are wasting your time. And Mine . I'm not looking to sell submission on you , I'm not even trying to convince you that My way is the right one. I am what I am and I'm happy like that. I don't care about your judgemental preconceptions. My principles and lifestyle are not negotiable. I'm not looking for a bf , a husband , a sugar daddy or even a sex toy. Period.

Finally , Domination is not about kinky sex.Domination is about power exchange. If you're capable to understand this , then you probably have a good potential as a sub. If you're just looking for kinky sex , I'm sure there are many women out there who will give you what you want. I'm not one of them...

About submission

2007-12-04T12:45:00.000-08:00

"True strength lies in submission which permits one to dedicate his life through devotion to something beyond himself" - Henry Miller

The quote above is the essence of submission in My opinion. A sub's first question when approaching a Domme should always be " How could I please You Mistress? " , and not things like "will you punish me?" ," let me worship your pussy" , " spank me , fuck me , etc". Don't come to Me with the "do me" attitude , cause I'll show you the exit door. This is not about you , pathetic prick , serving means being interested about My needs and desires and doing your best to please Me.

Don't abuse My generosity and take up My time in free text chat. Show some respect and pay for the privilege of having My attention. Always address Me in a polite manner and ask permission before entering or leaving My video chat room

Submission is a state of mind first of all. You get born with it , you feel it inside from very young ages. A person can be trained into submission and taught about being a better sub , but no one can be forced into submission if his mind is not set to work that way. All D/s relationships are consensual in the end.

It is a common misunderstanding , that only weak people are submissive. That is totally wrong ! There are many powerful , influent , intelligent men and women that are submissive deep inside. The modern society expects men to not express uncertainty or weakness , so they keep it inside . Submission allows a man to express all sides of his personality in a safe way. The so called "forced submission" is about those who know deep inside that they're submissive , but they're not ready to admit it to themselves. Through "forced submission" (which is only a consensual role-play ) , they are experiencing their submissive side without being held responsible for their actions.Of course , it's only a consensual role-play . I'm not really interested in any kind of D/s role-playing. This is My lifestyle and it's very real for Me. If you need to be forced into submission , therefore forced into pleasing Me , you're in the wrong place.

" If I accept you as you are , I will make you worse. However , if I treat you as you are what you're capable of becoming , I help you become that" - Goethe

A little bit about me

2007-12-04T12:32:00.000-08:00

I've always been an independent person , a brat as a young woman and later becoming fully aware of My power and ability to make others surrender to My wishes.Obviously , a stubborn , independent woman like Me can only be a Domme , when talking about My sexual attitude.

Some of the things I'm interested in : humiliation , CBT , sissification , worshiping , tease and denial , orgasm control , chastity , objectification , puppy training , financial domination and financial blackmail.

I will make it clear for you from the start :I am not providing a service , I'm just being Myself and I make you a favor if I allow you to serve Me and worship Me. I don't judge anyone's principles and life views , so I expect you to do the same. If you don't feel the same way, you are free to go right now . I'm not forcing anyone to share My beliefs , so don't try to sell Me your ideas on D/s. This is who I am , My personal beliefs are not negotiable.

2007-10-28T22:56:00.000-07:00

more pictures of limp dick jeff

2007-10-28T22:53:00.001-07:00

Sample of chat with loser jeff. He's really looking for troubles.

pictures of bitch jeff

2007-10-28T22:51:00.001-07:00

He really loves taking it up the ass , doesn't he?

Bitch Jeff

2007-10-28T22:23:00.000-07:00

I didn't want to start my blog with a limp dick loser like Jeff , but he's just too out of this world and too much of a dumbfuck not to mention him here. He's a pathetic creature calling himself a "man" , but he gets hard wearing his girlfriend's panties , bras and using her dildos. He is the man , isn't he ? HAHAHAHA !!! More than that , our stupid bitch here called Jeff likes playing with the fire , begging me to blackmail him.How does he do that? By giving me a fake email address of his girlfriend ( I really doubt he has a gf , he's too much of a loser for that). He really thought I would buy that and take his bs for granted , stupid loser Jeff. I never believed any of the information he gladly served me , but I did took REAL pictures of him wearing women lingerie and fucking his ass with a big dildo. He loves taking it up the ass and he loves sucking cock , so if you see him on the street , give him a time to remember. He will thank you for fucking him hard , as the slut he really is.

Here's just part of the pictures I took while he was performing for me.